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I just came from our retreat last night and this afternoon. I never thought that the experience would be very memorable. I didn’t really planned on taking it seriously because for me, I actually thought it’d be boring.

I was never the religious type of person. Growing up with grandparents around me, I was conservative but not the “manang” type. It was by far different from being religious. Yeah, now I know.

I went to the retreat house with tw of my friends. When I saw the place, I felt a certain so\mething in me that I didn’t know. I was reluctant but I knew it’s a requirement and there’s no way backing out.

We had a few sessions of which I never really thought i’d enjoy. At first, though, I was pretty disappointed because my souls sister and I were in two different rooms. Because of that, i thought I won’t be enjoying the night but heck, we ended up staying in the room of our adviser! woah! haha

the retreat was so much fun but i guess the best part was the prayer thingy. we weren’t allowed to bring cellphones or writst watches and there wasn’t even a sign of a clock there. i think it was 10pm. we had this session about prayers and communication. I knew right then and there that it’ the heart of the retreat.

And I was right.

We were asked to hold hands with our seatmates and the facillitator started relaxing us by giving us some breathing excercises, eyes closed. By that time, I was already sensing something. However, i was pretty drowsy but then again, he told us, “your burdens are on your shoulders. let them down. don’t be too insecure. Let all those pains and hurts down.” Suddenly, thta was it. Tears started rolling down my eyes.

I realized that I’ve been keeping the pains in my heart and it was one chance for me to let go.

I’ve had so many heartaches, pains, and all and I keep it in my heart. For the longest time I felt EMPTY. Despite the fact that I’m an honor student and all, I was feeling empty. Why? Such a big question. Why do I feel empty? The facillitator suddenly asked us to imagine our parents and most especially our dads.

He said fathers are the most misnderstood people in the world. and he was right. He asked us, when did you last talked to your parent? when did you last hug your parents? when did ytou lasttold your parents you love them? me? I could hardly remember. especially with my dad. Then, the lights went off… and a father’s voice was played over the tape.

At that point, I must say, most of us were weeping. I couldn’t help my tears. they just kept on flowing. After that, he asked us to find a place where we could talk to God. Believe it or not, I felt a hand in my head and I imagined my dad but as the image became clearer, I saw God. Just the way I imagined him to be.

I qwent to a secluded place to reflect. Tears were still running down my eyes. I couldn’t help it. Even when we returned to the session hall, many were still weeping. Including me.

Another highlight would have ot be when he asked us to hug our classmates. We were all emotional I think. Yeah, we were. I got the chance to hug this person I devoted my life to and missed. He was one of the persons who made my hs life happy and yet, even if I see him everyday, I still do miss him. I miss our 2nd year days and all. I missed you, pal!

Then in themorning, we were shown a video about abortion. there was a fetus shown and he was being aborted. you could hear the heartbeat and yet they were being killed. Ow, poor little child.

Now, I guess I’m a better person. i learned how to listen. In a different way. Thanks to the retreat. Thanks to my friends. thanks to God.

I may not be a religious person but I do believe that God gives me a miracle each day.