“Yeah you bleed just to know you’re alive”

mood:ok
singing:these lines from songs:
I know you don’t really see my worth
You think you’re the best guy on earth
Well I’ve got news for you
I know I’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long
from nina’s Someday and these lines as well…
Right now I know you can tell
I’m down and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won’t have to cry, sweet goodbye

and from Avril’s My Happy Ending,
It’s nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It’s nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

I’m ok now.Better than I was before. I’m learning to live eah day without thinking about him…or them,in that manner.It’s like I don’t care at all. I’m striving to forget about what happended no matter how difficult it will be for me. It’s their life.Their choice.

I think this is God’s way of making me see who me real friends are and who really loves me.I felt betrayed. Yeah, I kept on thinking,“nananadya ba sya?” and then I realize that maybe yes, maybe not.

My cousin told me that she’sprobably like that ’cause she envies me.I don’twant to sound mayabang. I think someone won’t hate you if they don’t want to be like you. so I kinda think she’s right.

But what’s to envy me? I don’t have anything to boast. I’m just,simply being me. That’s all. Me,myself and I. Astrid.No pretentions.No masks. Me. Me. Me.

I learned so many things from what happended. I can’t blame anybody, though because after all, it’s their life.

This week has been a rollercoaster ride for me but now, I’ve shed enough tears and washed away the pains.Things will never be the same again for me and my former friend…if she even considered me one.

There are things that makeme smile. First,family. My familyhas always been supportive.Then, friends.Thanks to sis, jayvee, dane, aghie, jeff,josh,flor, czar, lolah and all the others who showed me that i don’t have to weep over someone who doesn’t deserve my tears. Lastly,my new home! haha

I’ve had the most number of comments here! thanks, thnaks to all those who gave out their comments.Your comments will be returned.i assure you.Thanks a lot.

wee! extra three days of free time! hahaI’m gonna go check out your blogs!

ciao!

this will be the first and last time i’ll be talking about him and her ever again. Pardon me, but I think this will be an emo post

I love him…I think I really do. i keep on denying it to myself but the more I do, the more I know that indded, i do and desperately do. too bad, just when i thought things will be going my way, I stumbled upon the very truth that indeed, he has fallen for her.

I honestly don’t know how i should feel or, if i’m authorized to feel something but I can’t help sobbing, crying in my bed each night when I found out the truth about it. This feeling sucks for the very reason that I don’t have the right to feel this way because after all, we’re just friends. He was never mine. There was never an “us” to begin with.

We can never lose what we never had. Yeah, what a disturbing truth.

I hate him not because of loving someone else but for being too damn nice to make me feel loved when infact, it was just all too platonic. I’m pretty bitter to the girl because she said that she’s not completely happy when I think she is. It looks like a sign of being plastic…at least in my opinion. Lastly, this girl’s best friend is getting in my nevers. Ok, so her “bestfriend” and the guy likes each other but it still sucks when she(the bestfriend) slaps it in my face the fact that he likes her.

So this is it. I’m going to move on now with the help of my friends.

Goodbye for him and to her… i don’t know.

I’m just going to enjoy the last 44 days of my senior year.

Ciao!