this will be the first and last time i’ll be talking about him and her ever again. Pardon me, but I think this will be an emo post

I love him…I think I really do. i keep on denying it to myself but the more I do, the more I know that indded, i do and desperately do. too bad, just when i thought things will be going my way, I stumbled upon the very truth that indeed, he has fallen for her.

I honestly don’t know how i should feel or, if i’m authorized to feel something but I can’t help sobbing, crying in my bed each night when I found out the truth about it. This feeling sucks for the very reason that I don’t have the right to feel this way because after all, we’re just friends. He was never mine. There was never an “us” to begin with.

We can never lose what we never had. Yeah, what a disturbing truth.

I hate him not because of loving someone else but for being too damn nice to make me feel loved when infact, it was just all too platonic. I’m pretty bitter to the girl because she said that she’s not completely happy when I think she is. It looks like a sign of being plastic…at least in my opinion. Lastly, this girl’s best friend is getting in my nevers. Ok, so her “bestfriend” and the guy likes each other but it still sucks when she(the bestfriend) slaps it in my face the fact that he likes her.

So this is it. I’m going to move on now with the help of my friends.

Goodbye for him and to her… i don’t know.

I’m just going to enjoy the last 44 days of my senior year.

Ciao!